Hi Spot on. You won't chase us away. I am so sorry you have had so much stress and pain in your life. I don't see where you have anything to feel guilty about. It sounds like you have worked so hard to take care of your family and keep everything going. You must be exhausted working 70 hours a week. I am glad you got to see a therapist and are getting some help. We are here for you. Keep posting to us, we care. You are in my thoughts and prayers.