Hi lonewolf. We all have those real bad days and times when everything seems hopeless. I know because I have been there. Hang in there, find a distraction, music to listen to, something good to read. Keep posting here. I know it is hard because depression hurts. You feel like it will never get better, but at some point it will. Don't be afraid to call a hotline or go to a hospital if you don't feel safe. Best of wishes.