I just want to cry right now absolutely no reason for it. This funk is getting deeper and I don't like it I think it might have to do with my anniversary of when I hit rock bottom which was 7 years ago this Saturday the 20th. It is amazing that I fought this past 7 years (believe you me sometimes it was very iffy) and keep on ticking as it were. I will be distracted that entire day doing something I enjoy. But the person that actually had the most to do with saving my life that day will be with me on Saturday. It has much different memories for her and last year was the last I thanked those individuals involved. For her I stopped the year before that per her request.

I know I can do this but I think some old stuff is stirring in my head right now and I am not trying to dwell on that but it is a little hard and overwhelming at times. Thanks for listening whoever...