Leah, I am sorry that you're going through this. I don't think that today was a fluke, though. It's the result of taking on too much. From the sound of it, you're pretty much a single mom and sole bread winner. I think you know some ways to ease the stress, but the question is whether or not you can accept something that's not exactly what you planned (such as finishing school by a certain date and making more money from a career that traditionally pays less than it deserves).
I'll be honest and say that I'm troubled your therapist didn't keep to the agreed upon time limit. It's doable. People do it. And they survive. If you had the resources, sure, go for it. But money is a big stressor for you, so adding to your therapy costs is like giving alcohol to an addict to help them cope.
I had the opposite problem with an analyst I saw several years ago. I would leave 5-10 minutes early because I didn't like being asked to leave. He said it was his job, not mine, to manage the time. It was the only argument we ever had, but he was right.
I'm sorry if any of this sounds harsh. It's just that I've seen your posts and the many come-aparts over finances and stress/workload. Something has to give, and it's healthier if you decide how to cut back (whether it's school, family responsibilities, therapy, work hours) rather than having it decided for you through a health or other crisis. Right now, nothing you've described sounds sustainable.
There are options. You need some rest and time to see them.
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