I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I am so stupid it's ridiculous as though the entire world wants me to look like the dumbest sack of s*** ever to live (and I'm giving them what they want). The only thing that will make me happy is love, but no one wants to love a stupid, boring, 32 year old virgin. I can't do anything right, just remove my brain. And that job I have is tenuous now as I'm probably going to be written up by a nurse for defending myself when she chose to be a total c*** towards me (and has always been). Screw this life, either get me a restart or just finish it.