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Originally Posted by blur
leah, you have so much on your plate. it sounds like what you want to do is work less and *waves magic wand* i hereby give you permission to work a lot less hours. seriously, i think if you can cut somewhere (e.g. fewer work hours, go p/t for school) and get more sleep and R&R then you will feel less stressed. it sounds like rather than cutting things in your schedule right now you may be cutting sleep hours and that isn't sustainable. when i do that of course i drink lots of caffeine too which doesn't help my nerves. it does sound like it was just a bad day and tomorrow will most likely be better but that changes are also necessary for your health and stress level in the long run. take care of yourself. you are worth it.  |
There's no part-time alternative for school, it's either take a class each month or no class.... and if I skip one, it's not offered again for another year. I've finished 14 of these classes, 8 more to go. I've had many delays already on this path and want to see this through: I did take two months off in the last several to help me cope, so I have been mindful, but at this point, taking more off would mean serious delays.
If I work less hours, I lose the overtime pay I depend on. I'm working toward my degree as it will enable me to take a better paying job- though I may face a pay cut, I'm planning to at least only work 40 hours a week, which will be a huge improvement. Dealing with the financial reality of that is stressful too though, and I'm trying to make heads of it now, prepare and position myself well for the transition, I'm just short on time for that too.
My therapy budget is fine (someone else mentioned that) - I just had an extra long session today but have adjusted for it, so that part's okay.
I do agree something needs to give.
I *think* what I need is to shorten my days.
I just struggle with getting to bed at a decent hour, but then I have the cycle of being less able to be efficient and concentrate the next day.
I was managing this schedule until major cutbacks at work and the independent study snafu.
Something does have to give. I need to figure that out. I will be rereading all the feedback here, need to process everything.