Same here. I'm not a patient person by nature, so feeling this crappy for this long and not detecting any break in the clouds is the pits. Being on this site and relating to other people who are in the same boat has really helped me. It makes me feel like there WILL be ups and downs (LOTS of them) but there are always people out there somewhere who will share words of understanding when I'm stuck in a really bad place. I hope you find some relief from your family stress, and more friends who even if they don't understand your feelings, validate them by listening and offering nothing but love and support. Being misunderstood and isolated just makes everything so much worse. Keep trying...