You say you aren't ambitious but you were disciplined enough to save up 10k to make the move to NY. Good indication to me that you have your act together. I'm an artist and I actually sell some, but I work too. Creativity is a feel good thing but it's a bad career choice statistically speaking. One of my best friends (best man at my wedding ) sounds like your boyfriend and you sound like his ex girl friend. She had enough of him and moved out. I don't know what the love equation is but sounds like you need to act on your instinct, or at least give him an ultimatum.