but its not. I was feeling better for a while ... I was actually nieve enough to think that i had "beat" this thing. How foolish am I?

Its not the environment that makes me feel this way. It can't be certain people because i haven't been around them in a long time. I'm away from my family .. thought that would be a good thing. Give me time to heal. Nope.

What is wrong with me? I dont want to go back to another T. I feel like an idiot in there and i'm not going to put myself through that again. Actually, skratch that. I feel like an idiot everywhere, in everything that i do. Please dont tell me that i am "smart"... i won't believe you.

What do i do? Where do i turn? Why does this hurt have to keep crawling back no matter where i go ..