That sounds really intense. I hope you can also talk to t about your worries for after session.
Headphones is a great idea, just be careful not to blow your ears out I think I'm lucky I have my car, because I turn the bass and volume way up, them drive around till I feel better... I can relate to the feeling of wanting to cut and scream. sending love your way. Come back here anytime to vent also if it helps.

(Totally love tori also)