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Originally Posted by Leah123
Thank you, yes, it definitely sounds like you know what this is like.
The thing that sucks is my T and I were focusing *hard* on me letting go of things, not taking on too much. I took a TON off my plate to enable me to do college, and then I started leaning more on my husband and in-laws for help and giving myself permission to not be everywhere, all the time, to take some me time, to prioritize.
I was really happy with my success 
But then, they cut 6 of my 14 person team at work and increased the workload.
After that, all my classes at school changed.
So... right when I thought I'd be doing really well, things got worse.
I do need to rebalance. I must rebalance.
Today I was literally thinking- the only free time I have to cut is using these boards, sigh, like... if I wasn't on psychcentral, I'd have a little more time, how awful is that.
Working from home though and dealing with a lot, I value my interactions here. Sigh.
I will reread all the posts here and keep trying to figure it out. Sleep will help, I'm sure. I'd like to see how I feel if I could even just get one week of good sleep, like 7 hours a night instead of 5. That's a good goal for me right now. |
Can you lessen the class load from 3 to 2 classes and still maintain your student loan? Where I go the minimum to be part time is 2 classes to be part time. Is it an option to change your status from full to part time? Full time is a really tall task for someone who's working full time, and has a child with special needs. There are things you can let slide as I found out too, like the hair and such "smaller" things. However, kids with needs like our children's need more than the average kid. So you should almost think of yourself as a mom of two instead of one child (everyone tells me my daugher is the equivalent of 2 kids and they are right
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I know this might not be what you want to hear or you probably already know it. But the practical issues seem to me what you need to focus on more than anything. Therapy is great, but it can't really help you with what you're having trouble with that much, at least I don't think it can. Your's is a situation that even the most well adjusted people wouldn't handle without trouble. And you must be pretty well adjusted or there's no way you'd function as well as you do with all you have on your plate! But you are human, and there is only so much humans can do at once without losing something important in the process. Just be careful you aren't over reaching, especially where you seem to be second guessing your chosen career/education track. Make sure you're confident all of this work and stress is worth it. If not you really may find yourself even more frustrated when it's all done.