Really struggling a lot today. Waiting to hear back from pdoc's office re whether I can have the ECT or not. Apparently there's a potential glitch because of a slightly abnormal ECT. Plus, I'm without a car today so won't be getting out of the house. Feel stuck in bed, depressed and anxious. Don't know what I will do if I can't have the ECT. It's my last hope. Each minute that I wait for the phone to ring seems like a year. I'm calling again tomorrow if I don't hear back today.