I can say some pretty hurtful things at time and I do feel terrible afterwards when I come down. I spend so much time apologizing and making it up to her when I come down and feel better.

At first the gf found it hard to deal with and she did end up drifting away but eventually she learned to separate my illness and my behavior in manic states from me. She knows I would never say those things if my mind was in the right state and it has made it easier once she learned to differentiate between the two. Also the therapy helped a lot with this issue as well.

I wish you the best of luck if he or you two can get into some sort of counseling.