If YOU were a woman the she were man she would be in jail... Cut and dry..Your giving out excuse after excuse and spending all kinds of time and energy trying to figure out what in the world is wrong with her .. You will never know the what and why for what she did and what you once had with her.. Thats the past. Im glad your seeing your doctor about the depression that this entire mess has cause you. You are doing the right thing. Close the door on her and move on to the future, You seems like a wonderful person with much love to give the right loving woman.