Hang in there vjdragonfly...your md should call back soon...we all know the fear when you feel like your moods are controling you, not you controling them..and the meds were working and now not...had to call my psy md 4wks ago, tweaked meds, have anxiety med added...am feeling better/did not lose it . Hopefully your md will call back soon...you are not alone, we all know that feeling...can you play cards? Games online? Watch tv? Sometimes I just count from 1-100 and back but I breath I n counting 1, 2, 3, 4 then out counting 5, 6, 7, 8to try to calm myself. Hugs...hugs