Hi Hellion, I have had the suicide ideation as well. I will find my mind drifting into thoughts of it from time to time. I also try not to talk about it with people around me. I find all sorts of reasons not to do suicide, especially how it would affect my family. But that doesn't mean I don't think about it. In fact I think about it probably too often. I wish I knew a good answer for us. Last week I went to see the nurse practitioner at the neurologist office. I was telling her that I was having a terrible time with migraine headaches and that if they did not stop I would be almost suicidal. She asked in serious shock if I was suicidal. I decided then to shut up because I had a trip planned that weekend to visit my son for his birthday and I did not want to be sent to a mental hospital. Then I thought to myself, if she only really knew. There were times I thought about it, but I don't think I would ever really do it.

I can't do much but sending hugs your way.