Thank you NWgirl

I do spend time with my parent and love him a lot. He's not that old really. I think I do more damage than good tbh though I just want him settled and happy so I can go. I think about winning some lottery money a lot so I can make him secure and then go as soon as he's alright. Pathetic daydreaming.

Thank you for answering and I will still be here tomorrow *sinking feeling*

xx