I was diagnosed with schizophrenia... I've had a hard time with my parents growing up. i will keep this short... i actually hear voices and have no problems with them... i live with my parents and they often worry about me.. i used to take drugs and it'd upset my voices.. i don't take drugs and I'm on medication. i don't think that i need to be on the medication.. my parents want me to take it in order to live at their house... there are some things on my records from going to court and stuff where i have weird arrests from alcohol related stuff or whatever... the doctors seem very militant about having me take the medication...

So anyways, I've been thinking about moving away from my parents... i don't have that much money and I'm not interested in going through long programs or whatever... I'd possibly like to not speak with my parents again and just move.. I've had enough working and enough jobs...

Is there anything that i can do?? I've been reading that being homeless is becoming more and more illegal, and homeless shelters just don't make much sense to me...

I don't know what to do, I'm not very smart and i don't think that there's much play in the world for me... I'd actually just like to walk around all day and stay in shelters at night and not eat that much...

every time i go to any rehab programs or anything, i hate it... i don't feel like constantly going to psychatrists and being forced to take medication... i don't want to be confined to one place either.. like they have a sober house in my town... the town is so small that there's no where to even walk to with out high ways and what not...

i can't rely on my parents for ever... the economy seems so bad that i can't even imagine what my future would be like... i don't want to go to jail for being homeless.

If i decide to never talk to my parents again, will they force me to take medication... can my parents or the government force me to take medication with out a criminal record or proof that I've done something wrong...

like i said they seem militant about me taking the medication... my parents abused me and each other when i was a child and now they expect me to live under their control. they bother me and it's hard for me to be around them... I'm almost thirty and i don't know what to do.. i really don't want to take medication.. from what i understand that with my history, if i try to get government funded housing, they will force me to take medication...

I'm worried about the medications i take and my parents have actually lied and exajjerated about my condition to doctors... i believe that my parents are bad people and i really don't like the advice and attitude that i get from a lot of government doctors...

Also, does anybody know if they give government housing to married people??? I'd like to move to something like what people call "the projects" in a city so i could walk around and be near all sorts of different stuff...

I really have a hard time communicating and working and all i want to do is walk around... this is a long winded post.. i don't know what to do... I'm afraid doctors are going to force me to try to take more medication if i go to them... I'm afraid that they will screw up my mind if i take too much of them and that i will kill myself or something... a lot of them dehydrate me and bother me... i think the longer that i am out of work, the more likely it will be that my parents make something up to the therapists and doctors that i go see and they will institutionalize me ... i can't stand psychwards... i get really sick... I'm afraid that they will keep me in those places forever...

i think that maybe i should leave my parents... but with the way that the world is and with my intelligence, i feel like there is no way for me to survive... i have a hurt back and can't lift anything, and walking in certain areas scares me... i don't think that i can find a full time job that i can keep with the way that rent is nowadays...

i live in Massachusetts if this helps.... also I'd like to find a way to get legal marijuana because that's the only thing that really helps me... A lot of my legal problems have come from having to obtain marijuana from bad people and getting in trouble with cops... I'd like to find some type of reservation or something to live on where i could walk around the wilderness and smoke pot... this sounds greedy but my childhood was so bad, i was hit a lot and when smoking weed is the only time that I'm at peace.. the medications that I'm on do nothing similar, they only dehydrate me and make me nervous..

sorry for the long winded post... please reply