I make my "team" sound bad which really isn't the case. I think the motivation is to keep me out of the hospital as far as the lithium goes. My aversion to it is hard to explain. I've enjoyed several years of stability for the most part and I have meds to thank for it. Last year the paradigm shifted and I think I have post surgery opioid IV's to thank for that. I've almost digressed here. I have a great therapist, I just know he was really adamant about me seeing the doctor because of the stuff I did tell him. Had I told him the rest, he probably would have gotten the doctor himself. And truthfully, I know the answers to the questions I've asked but the truth is inconvenient. And a little scarey. It's hard to keep on point and I had to see it laid out in a different arrangement so to speak. I guess when I call him back, I should also tell him that I stopped taking the klonopin.