Making friends, getting a job, feeling happy with myself, managing my wardrobe, I don't think it will ever happen. I'm 36 now, so there's almost not enough time to do a few of these things. Making friends at my age is hard and I couldn't do it when I was in high school, so what chance is there now? Getting a job likewise. I've been unemployed for four years so it's not getting any easier.

Feel completely hopeless.

Lots of suicidal thoughts, but I don't know if I can kill myself.