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Originally Posted by Evening
I have a week off work this week (I work nearly a full week for one, and only a day the next so I took that day off), and I really want to get my house thoroughly clean.
I have a bit of a problem when it comes to maintaining my house in that I struggle to get out of bed when I don't have a real reason to do so, such as work or an appointment, so my house- for the 9 years I've lived in it- has barely been presentable, except when I have an inspection every 3 months or the very rare occasion that there is the plan for someone to come over. Nobody can come in my house because of the condition it's in.
When I say to people it's a mess the usual response is that it doesn't matter, they don't mind. I really don't think people understand what I mean when I say mess. I'm not talking clothes on the floor and a bit of rubbish. It's very embarrassing to admit. I know there will be someone here who understands my situation though. I don't like to live that way, but finding the ability to do something about it can be virtuall impossible.
Every day off I have I think 'this time I'll do something', and I don't. I really want to try and get it clean this week, but I know even if I do manage it won't stay that way, it will end up back at square one. 
It's not that I don't like cleaning, I actually do, I get really excited at the idea of buying new cleaning products, and when I do actually start getting into the cleaning I get really tedious and try to get everything perfect. And I love my house being clean, I feel so much happier. But it's so hard to really achieve, it's so bad that it takes a very long time, and it's far too bad to allow anyone in to help me. |
Oh my gosh.....word for word....I could have written this.....it's exactly what I've been saying for several years now.......I really need a one room cabin to live in. When I bought my farm house I wasn't planning on the time that I was getting divorced finally after 33 years of a bad marriage. I ended up buying a 2500 sq ft home with 4 bedrooms 3 baths & a huge basement......& no furniture. Most of the stuff is just empty boxes or boxes that I haven't been able to carry upstairs by myself. Living alone, I can only do so much work.....when I have a project I work on it & everything else gets let go......like I had to paint the bedroom floor before they could lay the linoleum because of my dogs messing up the carpet......but the kitchen got left & the yard & fields needed mowing....but there is only one me.....& on top of that, I fractured my back about 3 years ago & I can only to do much work at a time or stand up for so much time before it starts hurting & then I just can't push myself like I could in my younger days & there is no one else to push when I'm not able to push myself.....like I would force my husband to do the work when I completely crashed......but I am finally free from the bad marriage.....so there is NO ONE BUT ME....& when ME doesn't get it done....it doesn't get done.
Find sometimes a mess happens in the kitchen & if I physically can't deal with it at the time....it just gets left....then other things have a higher priority......& the mess just waits....as it's not going anywhere until I finally get around to it....but when too many of those messes happen around the house & with 3 dogs...messes happen......sometimes I just want to nuke the house.....or as normal....I pray for a tornado to take it away so I can replace it with the cute little cabin I really want.