I've wondered for quite some time. I have a deep fascination with fire, I like being around bonfires, striking matches, lighting candles etc.. I would never do something stupid like purposely set the house on fire.

Today my mum found out because I hadn't properly cleared the kitchen of the candle smell. I always light matches safely, I don't go near wood and usually do it near the sink and keep my sleeves away from the fire, tie my hair back. I was quite upset when she told me off for doing this to cure boredom and I feel miserable because I probably can't do it again without getting caught. I hadn't done it for months, yet this one time she just had to find out.

I understand her concern and I know its probably not the safest habit, but the way she approached me made me feel small and scared. I am quite sensitive to being told off, which I know sounds childish, but it makes me feel terrible for a really long time and I can never stop thinking about it.