The only advice I can give is what's helping me. Find a great DR and Therapist. Get on meds and talk. It's a very long process and my meds are still being adjusted. Tell your Dr and therapist everything. I just started opening up and I can say it saved my life. My illness is far from being better . All the feelings are still there and I know they aren't real knowing doesn't make the feelings any less strong but I have faith that one day it will get better