Thank you very very much. You have such a kind way of talking about it and I appreciate that.
I do think this is what happened.
I guess I could see it as a gift, that the structure was lost so I could have the chance to get better.
I have been trying to figure this out for a while now. I think structure is a key. It came to me by way of child and job and my child is now raised and my current job is very unstructured.
Thank you Rapunzel !!
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