I'm not underweight. I partake in cycling and walking which burns off some calories. I do constantly think about how much I should be eating and how much I weigh. I have been terrified of putting on weight my whole life. I have been bulimic before but never went below a certain weight. However, in my boyfriend's opinion, I am too skinny for him. I am already seeing a psychiatrist for borderline personality disorder, obsessive-compulsive disorder (most of my eating habits are based on ocd rituals), depression, anxiety and ptsd symptoms. I have since made an appointment with a therapist as well, because my psychiatrist often doesn't have time for long or frequent sessions.