Wanting to just stay inside....going for a walk...had a talk with my partner yesterday. We're not married but have been together 10 years, last three living together. Not having a job is a problem between us and it doesn't matter that I've done everything he has asked. I don't have "sitting around the house disease" is what he calls it. So now I have a three month window to get a job. I have put in 100's of apps, took a course at community college and passed that this June, put more apps in, had a part-time job at a fast food place for two weeks. I am walking not just to get out but be able to stand being on my feet for 8 hours a day. No insurance to deal with health issues, pretty sure I'm diabetic. I really do understand his frustration...I want more than anything to be independent money wise from him. The car had another major repair about four weeks ago....this month has been just not peachy. All I want is a job that will support myself. We are carefully being nice to each other and He has set another deadline.....I hate feeling I'm one step from living in a shelter.

Posted this yesterday in the new peep section and will just copy and paste. Did get out this morning and feeling just numb.