When I'm having breakthrough episodes when I'm on medication, I wake up in the morning extremely anxious and agitated. I start shaking and crying for no reason. I'll feel like I want to curl up in a ball and hide somewhere really dark. The last time this happened to me I did just that. In the middle of the night I was feeling so terrible I literally curled up into a ball on the floor of our closet and shut the door. I've also done the same thing and gone to sleep in the bathtub. It's quiet and dark in there and it makes me feel better. I've always described it as feeling "unstable", but is this mixed? No one's ever told me I have mixed episodes before.