Hello everyone,

I am new here and looking for some support and kindness.

I have been struggling a lot lately and recently reconnected with my old therapist. We last did intensive work a few years ago and I stopped regular visits due to having children and change in lifestyle, but we stayed in touch over the years and had random sessions. I realized that I badly needed support and help a few months ago and we started regular more intensive work a few weeks ago.

We had a difficult session on Thursday. I talked to her briefly on Friday (just a couple of minutes) and left a message over the weekend. She called me on Tuesday to let me know that she was having a situation at home but wanted me to know she was thinking of me and that she would try to get back to me as soon as she could, maybe later that day. The next day I received a phone call fe a colleague stating that she was cancelling our session for Thursday due to a family emergency and that she would be in touch when she was back in the office.

First and foremost, I am worried about her. I totally know from our years of seeing each other that this is not her usual and that something is really wrong. I also know that her husband had emergency surgery a couple of weeks ago (she called hours before our appt to cancel) and talked to me the very next day. I know that I am not her support and that it is none of my business what is going on, but naturally I do care and I am very worried. I wish there was something I could do to help.

Selfishly, I'm also really hurting. I miss her. We were in the middle of tough stuff and I'm worried I will never talk to her again. Most likely that is a huge overreaction and in the very least she will contact me when she is able. But my feelings are making me frustrated with myself for being so selfish and struggling so much.

Thanks for listening. I'm just feeling very alone and don't know where to go with it.