I echo the advice to follow your therapist's lead on this. She sounds like she knows what she's doing. An inexperienced therapist will force emotion and reinforce neural pathways that developed during the trauma. I know from personal experience the kind of damage this can do. Some think that it's a release (including one I saw that undid years of progress), but I didn't find that at all. For me, it was the opposite. Also, having the experience of backing off and still having that same level of support, knowing that I did not have to be in crisis to merit help, was very helpful.
What helped me was the last therapist I saw who would stop me if I started to escalate and redirect to a more calming experience; after all, the goal was to have less stress, not more. My brain needed (still needs) to get into a healthy habit of responding to thoughts, memories and current events that trigger the old stuff.
It's not ignoring the past or triggers of the present to move slowly. It's safer and more effective (imo).
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