Ok, So I think I was overreacting, I just felt this overwhelming despair- I was crying this morning uncontrollably and talked throught hings with my bf- he wasn't even upset with me anymore- when we had finished talking last night he assured me he still loved me and he ended up actually going to bed because he wanted to catch up on his sleep and he laid down and then I said goodnight and said I loved him and he didn't respond- which is I guess what caused my downward spiral- he claimed he didn't hear that nd we talked more and he said that it would take a lot more than that for him to leave me- he admitted because he has been more stressed and getting less sleep that things that normally wouldn't upset him as much have been.
So I guess part of the thing is once I start crying, it's hard to stop- I bottle a lot of things up and just all this emotion was wracking my body and he soothed me and now I feel silly. Maybe all this is partially because its that time of the month.