hey man, I can help you out.

Just wanna let you in on OCd

The reason your emotionless is because you are CHECKING for it.

When you obsess, we tend to stare blankly and one out. we zone out and think about our obsession. In your case this is killing people. the reason you do not feel the remorse, is because you are looking for it. your looking for a feeling in hopes that it will reassure you that you are "normal". but OCD will not allow you to feel anything. it will minimize all other feelings.

Same exact thing happens to me. I wil think of killing someone and then see if I feel remorse but I never do and it freaks me out. its all part of ocd. YOU WILL FEEL REMORSE IF IT ACTUALLY HAPPENED. if you ARE worrying about not feeling remorse then you know you are SANE and WILL feel remorse.

don't owrry its just ocd!