I thought he was perfect based on his specialties and bio. Maybe he is for some people. But not for me. He's so.. direct and jumps straight into things. One of the very first things he said to me was that his goal was to get me to where I don't need to see him as fast as he can. That alone, I mean, i understand the concept but just flat out saying it in the tone that he did, I felt like he was more like "Let's get this over with" than anything. Plus he asked me if I wanted to jump straight into traumas within the first 30 minutes. It was just too much, so I kinda drifted away towards the end of the session.

I wrote a letter for him telling him I was suicidal and didn't know what to do or anything but I couldn't give it to him.

So now I'm back to feeling completely alone and at this point, unsavable.

I'm so tired of everything. I just want to give up.