Have your T's talked to you about your attachment to them? I have fought all the positive feelings for my T never wanting to need her or rely on her. Last session I finally opened up about what I've gone through the past 3 months. Fighting my feelings of being close to her, feeling like she's my mom, my T and how I wish she could give me what my mom didn't. I even explained that I have fought the feelings for her feeling like I'm imposing since she can't reciprocate. That in any other relationship I would back down.
She said now that I have studied the concepts I need to feel the emotions. She didn't want me to read all that I have and get stuck on therapy concepts. But I still wish she would say it's ok to be attached to her. The closest she has gotten has been asking me why it's a bad thing.
Just wish she would be more verbal.