First, that wasn't rambling. I read every word. Feel free to post like that again and if I see it I'll read every word again.

I think maybe what's important is that you don't waste time. It took me almost two months to find and get an appointment with a psychologist. Then she recommended me to a psychiatrist which was going to take another month and a half to get an appointment with them.

So, I went to my family doc and he put me on meds until I can see the psychiatrist. So if I were you, I'd try and get an appointment with both the psychiatrist and psychologist asap, and if the psychiatrist is a wait, find a family doc in your area and ask for antidepressants.

Remember about the therapist(psychologist), if you don't like them or feel comfortable talking to them, then go find a new one. Don't give up. Think of what kind of person you would be most comfortable talking to, then see who is close to that in your area. I ended up having to drive an hour to see mine, but it's so worth it. She's great. And it gives me an hour on the way to think about what we'll talk about and an hour on the way back to decompress before I have to go back to the real world.

Good luck, I'll keep you in my thoughts.