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Originally Posted by Manic Trance
Sometimes I wonder if it's the best I can hope for as a bipolar person, cuz, legitimately, I do get up to some pretty difficult things. Like I WAY over plan and I am kind of a workaholic, and it's hard to get my attention, periodically you can't get a word in edgewise, periodically I am so depressed that I can't get up, or I'll do things like punch myself in the face, and none of this is easy to live with, so maybe being tolerated is the best I can hope for?
I know from reading the forum that a lot of people will tell me to hope for a lot more, and that is great, but what about my kid? I can't leave her here!
A conundrum no doubt...
Anyhow just talking about it is good...
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I am with you on this. I would give my life for my boy. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me and last time I tried to leave my marriage she tried to stop me seeing him. It broke my heart. I have thought of all the possibilities and scenarios where I could be without her but a single parent but even then, I couldn't take him away from her. She is his mother and deserves to be around him just as much as me. So the only options I feel I have is to stay with her and be miserable or end my life. But then that would be unfair to my son to not see his dad ever again.
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