Hi
I am trying to work out if I have some type of psychological disorder. I get obsessed with things to the point of ignoring other things, or to the point where I research something for hours and I haven't noticed the time passing. Now I know people would say ocd or something but it seems more random than that. To give an example, today I got obsessed with the news on television, I kept going on and on about it so much that I didn't actually hear my partner tell me she was sad. She says this is not unusual for me and she knows I love her but sometimes she doesn't feel it because I don't express love the same way she does and it upsets her. In my mind the news that I was going on about was the reason for everything and it was the root cause of every problem and was going to affect the future so negatively. She just wanted a hug and it just didn't occur to me that she was even sad, I didn't even notice, because my mind was totally focused on the news report on telly. I am sick of being like this, I want to be more how she wants me to be, because I do love her, but I am guessing, to everyone reading I just sound like an unloving awful partner. I try to show my love by doing things, telling her, being patient and supportive when she is anxious etc but it seems I am incapable of always being there for her how she needs, or recognising when she needs something without her telling me. Can someone suggest why I am this way, I am reluctant to go and talk to my doctor about such things, it would seem petty and a waste of his time, but this is causing hurt to the person I love and therefore making me feel unhappy also, so I just want to come up with answers, maybe a name for whats wrong with me, so that I can figure out how to combat or change the way I am.