It's been a while since I last post a message so please for give me. I give a lot of thought as to what I will post . My disorder keeps me from expressing what I really would like to say. So please don't judge me, when I started this web site I found that some of the people were truly compassionate and understanding to my feeling but I also felt inferior to others. I guess what I'm trying to say is that words can hurt or motivate someone in my condition. I fill like I can't find the words to properly express myself. Right now I'm under a lot of meds because I had a moment in my life where I just give up completely. So my husband took me to the hospital and told them through a letter that I needed help. Medication is not my first choice but it does help. If I offended anyone In the past I'm am truly sorry. This web site has helped me cope with my major depression. I really would like to hear from others because I have no else in my life right now.