Thank you to you all for your kind words and support.

My T called me yesterday afternoon. She told me that her husband is in critically ill condition at the hospital. She wanted me to know that I was in her heart but that she is unable right now to talk more. It was a heartbreaking conversation in some ways- obviously I wish it was different for her, I can hear the pain in her voice and how worried she is. At the same time, though, I'm touched that even in this difficult time she thought about me and reached out in the small way that she can. It just proves to me that she is truly amazing and that I'm not totally alone at least in spirit. And honestly, I couldn't ask for more from her. I wouldn't have blamed her if she didn't call me at all. I'm
going to try to just hang onto that as much as I can. I'm also trying really hard to not try to predict the future. It is what it is right now.

I am actually in a wedding party tomorrow so I am pushing myself to be present for it.

Thanks again for the kindness right now. I definitely need it.