I’m losing more and more patience with life everyday. Now it’s got to the point where family, the only thing that kept me fighting is rapidly losing it’s effect. I have been working on my spirituality for many years now and have learnt about the other side and of what truly caused me to become the mess I am today. I suffer from social anxiety and depression and according to a healer it stemmed for years of declining self worth. I was a happy child but also hypersensitive to emotion, living on a low vibrational planet, it didn’t take long for negative emotions to destroy my reality. Growing up I was a bit of a retard, always wanting to play and be stupid. As I became conscious of reality things went downhill.

I begin working on the therapy but it is very slow progress and recently I went to back to feeling as low as I first started. I'm so over this pathetic existence and can't wait to pass over. For those who think this is the only existence you are mistaken. Your body and the physical world is what you can see, but we also have a spiritual body and coinciding with that is the spiritual plain of earth as does each planet.When we die or astral project out spiritual bodies separate from are physical and we are move to earth’s plain, I still have nof yet perfect astral projection but if I die I don’t have to.

*I don’t know for sure but I’ve heard there is the council of light residing in the highest vibration in the universe AKA heaven. That is where I look forward to existing, as a non physical entity, a spirit, there is no limits and no discomfort. It just doesn't make sense why people would want to put up wih the struggles of being human and the temporary life they live.