Question?
When your death seems like the only way out how do you find other real life ways to survive in this world? --and when I mean survive, I am meaning...... eat, wash, drive, get medicine, pay for doctor appointments, have a safe place to live with out fear of being throw out because you cant work, therefore, you have no financial way to provide for your self.

How do you live without him when you love him more than you hate him? --and you need him to financial take care of you and yet emotionally you can barely stand him on a daily bases any more? --and others you share your life with are stressing you out with their daily nick picking, constant complaining and disrespect????

......... the only LIGHT in my sadness and darkness in my GRANDDAUGHTER --what would she do with out me. I could not bare to hurt her in such a way. She keeps me going. She is my only hope. <3