That makes me so angry what they did to you and then they get away with it.

I would suggest you keep posting here. I can only see my T every couple of weeks or so and between those visits PC has helped me a lot. You won't feel so alone in all this. Find people you can trust to talk to. You've experienced a very serious assault and you need support from friends and family if that's possible.

Find out all you can about PTSD. There are probably some good books in the library. There may not be anything you can do about the a--holes who raped you, but you can learn to take your power back.