With the old suppressed feelings that are still locked up inside you, you'll have to deal with those in therapy. Usually you can find patterns of behavior and dynamics that bother you in the present that link back to things that happened in your childhood/family/upbringing/school/etc.

The new feelings are tricky. When you do it often, suppression can become a knee-jerk response, and you can start doing it automatically, without even realizing you're doing it. Then you take a look at something that's just occurred and think, "Hey, wait a minute . . ." But it's too late too even react. And then things get displaced, and it becomes a mess. You start reacting to one thing when really you're reacting to something that happened 5 hours ago, or yesterday. At least, that's what happens to me.

It took me two years to actually cry in therapy. Two whole years. I only cried after I started getting better. It's still hard for me to cry in general, though.

You have to completely let loose in a place where you feel safe (like in therapy). But you should do it. You'll feel so much better. Suppressing things causes more depression and anxiety, so it just turns into a vicious cycle.

You have to be aware of it when you're doing it and stop. And let yourself feel. You can't be afraid of feeling.