That once seemed appealing to me when I was medication but that no longer works. I'd wanted to get to the true cause anyway. It seems as though I have outgrown that purpose. It's probably due to my level of self worth but that's just how I feel at the moment.

Yes that is exactly was it is about, learning from your lives you lived on this earth and experiencing new things. However I have no interest in experiencing life, I'd rather be a spiritual being that watches over humans or represents the council of light, providing assistance to those in need and keeping the darkness in check.