It's a ferris wheel tonight. In the bathroom at my son's game, and I am afraid of leaving. I hate this. I used to be such an involved, energetic and happy person. Now I feel like my life is spiraling out of control. I do know muscle relaxation. I was a dancer when I was in my teens and early twenties. Learned it from an incredible dance instructor I had. But we did it while lying on the mats on the floor. Can't do that at work. I am so frustrated. But I am thinking talking about it will help. I have to be comfortable enough to tell someone other than my husband. No one else knows that I have been diagnosed with this.