floating.feather I am so sorry you are in so much pain. Your words do matter and so do you. Maybe if you try different words and actions to explain yourself you may get a different response, just a thought. We all need space of our own sometimes it just takes a bit of patience to get it. I really hope things are better for you today. Don't hold back your tears everyone needs a good cry once in a while. You are important and your feelings do matter. I do care and I wish the best for you.

Floating, I'm so sorry that you're experiencing such pain. I know how you feel - and it does get better. Like the ocean, depression ebbs and flows, has some highs and many lowest of lows, but soon you won't feel as bad. Maybe try to close your eyes and cry, try and release some of the pain, then take a leap of faith and go out in the world. Feel the sun kiss your skin, the wind blow between your fingers, and maybe you'll see a ray of hope. Keep hanging in there. Things get better, I promise

Hi floating.feather, I'm really sorry things have been/are so hard for you and I can imagine you must see it as pointless in even trying to explain all of that to everyone around you??
But that says a whole lot more about their lack of understanding than it does about you, OK??
You and your feelings do matter!! And they matter to us!!
So whatever you want to say we're here for you.
And just picking up on a few things...........you/your life aren't pathetic You may be struggling a lot right now but you do have a lot to cope with by the sounds of it. And you know things can get better with time, help, support...........it might not feel like it right now but..........so for now is there any way you can get a little more support (because guaranteed not everyone will be as disregarding as those around you) e.g. any friends/other family members you can share with or a doctor/pdoc???
Because there's absolutely nothing wrong with letting out your feelings (just as with your tears) and you deserve understanding.
It can take time to work through depression (one step at a time, hey ) and whatever support you can get with it............well that's something, right?
But you know you're not so alone anyway, yes?? Because we're here for you
Alison