I truly appreciate all the kind words of advice and encouragement.
Last time I saw a doctor was when I was diagnosed and have since learned my lesson with not going.
So appointment set for next week and honestly it couldn't come soon enough.

My fiancé took the news with grace as expected so that's a huge weight off my shoulders.
I used to do yoga every single day as it would keep me grounded but when the depression hit this hard I couldn't even find the motivation for that. I got out of the house today and stopped by and paid my yoga dues. So I think with therapy, meds and a little time to myself at yoga I might pull out of this and be on a better path to managing this properly.

I was put on lithium last go at the doctors office, any thoughts on it?
Thanks again.