I don't post what's going on alot with my daughters...saying out loud, or typing it, makes it so much more real and scary.

My youngest has made it to 5 1/2 months. The ultrasound of little Jonathan showed everything they can see as doing well. He's a big boy already. She's doing better emotionally since seeing him and knowing that all is well in appearance.

It's still a daily struggle of managing her panic (I've no doubt all this has traumatized her), her physical symptoms, her fear for her baby, and her meds.

Her Endo is concerned that her counts haven't stabilized in the second trimester as is normal. That concerns him for the hormonal changes in the third. Will she have to have surgery while pregnant? Will they have to deliver the baby too early if he starts showing the affects of the grave's/hyperthyroidism or gets tachycardia himself?

You would think that once we get this baby here OK it's over right? Wrong. There's a special condition with Grave's post-partum. It's UGLY. She's concerned for her baby and her relationship with him during that time. We're going to ask her doctor if her thyroid can be removed before it begins, or if meds will help there. It's all so scary.

We have no doubt that this pregnancy was a miracle to save daughter's life...how scary. See, Grave's untreated *sometimes* (added later) leads to death. She's had this since she was young with the Grave's Opthalmopathy and no one picked up on it...not dr's, not specialists, not opticians or opthamolgists. She was on the pill and it's supposed to be very difficult to conceive with Grave's and she got pregnant. It showed us the Grave's and the treatment necessary for HER.

There are still many concerns for both daughter and baby until he's safely delivered, then afterwards for her. Her endo now has her carry around emergency paperwork to give ER at the slightest sign of problem...including infection. See, her auto-immune meds can wipe out her white blood count...

During all this my oldest found out she was pregnant and lost it 5 days later. She's now pregnant again, and there are obvious concerns for her.

I just want 6 weeks to pass quickly...my youngest's pregnancy will be to the point where if they have to deliver early, the chances of the baby being OK are better, and with my oldest...she'll be out of her first trimester and maybe I can calm about her pregnancy.

My little man is extremely jealous and I'm working that as best I can.

Me? I'm in peri-menopause and having the hot flashes and lack of sleep. I'm running on empty...all the time...physically and emotionally. It's not going to calm down any time soon, so it's one day at a time.

Now I'm to the question,

Can anyone tell me something that might help with my symptoms so I can be 100% for my girls? I'm more fidgety than a hen on a hot rock after a worm. I have nerve meds I can take, but I detest doing that during the day. I will at night if I have to. They make me tired (even the smallest broken in half). I can't be tired and pissy raising a four year old.

Also, can anyone suggest any good supplements for me. I'm about as drained and tired as a body can be. Thank God for PC...my outlet, my escape, my friends, my positive focus.

Thanks, guys.

KD