I feel uncomfortable accepting suggestions because I feel uncomfortable letting anyone know that they mean anything to me unless I am super close to them. It's difficult to explain how A relates to B, but it somehow does. I feel awkward complimenting people and I feel like saying "good suggestion I will do it" is something complimentary. I do actually often do what people suggest but not without at a minimum at least making it appear like I'm dismissing it.

I do not know why I do this. I think it might be something like a disordered attachment issue that I've personalized. Or I could just be a ****. You can decide for yourself. I'm not completely sure.