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Old Sep 21, 2014, 12:55 AM
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Originally Posted by daisychain23 View Post
I was mistreated to say the least by people who are supposed to care for you and now its left me with P.T.S.D and I don't know what to do.

I went out with some friends and got into a bit of a drunken argument. I was then arrested and took to a police cell and stripped naked and made to bend over by force by male officers while another searched my body inside. It felt like it went on for hours. I felt like I was being raped, it was so terrifying I was scared and I moved to try stop the pain. I was then tied up by my hands and legs naked, and they just carried on searching me.. It was so humiliating I cant seem to know how to get it out of my head.

I complained about it, but as there was no CCTV in the cell, they got away with it.
That was still police brutality and abuse of their power. A lot of abuse happens when there are no witnesses. Then they can get away with everything. that still does not make it right! I am so sorry that happened. I can only imagine what it must have been like---and it is pretty bad, later on. I still have my own body memories of the things that have happened to me. There were no witnesses in my abuse either. Someone, once, at a hospital, when they were asking me about my history, said, "Oh well, if no police were present or witnesses, there was probably no abuse." Like h*ll there wasn't.

you know it happened. You feel it.

I believe you.

Keep posting.

And I hope the help comes thru and you can deal with it in counseling. you deserve to get past this!

Carol
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