I feel this way sometimes. Part of me wishes so badly to be touched and yet I don't trust that. I have been getting therapeutic massages and I am still trying to find a massage clinic where I feel comfortable. That has to be an emotionally safe place or there is NO WAY i can let someone close, even for that. Massage was suggested to me by therapists and by my mentor, for me to learn how to trust humans physically again. To trust nonabusive touch.

It is something else when people abuse that need to be close by abusing us. Then we can't trust someone to touch us safely. All touch then becomes so scary and invasive. We associate that need with a fear of being violated or hurt again. IMHO.

Carol